My Mycelium Journey

Sometimes the story isn't as true as your mind had you believe.   Today Tommi reached out about the last 2 pinball games and getting them to me.  My first thought was "i hope she's OK". Wondering what spurred this.  I hope she's happy and healthy and just wants her space back.  I do often think of her when I do my loving kindness meditation.   I feel bad for being so upset.  What a hard time for all of us.  And i know and appreciate all she had to go thru trying to keep dad comfortable when he was sick. Thankful she could be there for him when he needed it most.  I wish I could have gotten more time with him,  but thankful that I got time with him at all. What i perceived as "meanness" was her attempt to protect Dad.  Kids really can be parasites,  I totally get it. Parents can't see it and the kids don't either,  but their partners sure do.  I tried so hard not to be a drain to parents but it's really hard to se...

Maga texts out of control.  Today they sent one about drag queens grooming kids. I'm not sure i could love a "type" more,  but don't come after my queens.... angels with eyelashes!  I responded to the bot with this:   I'm so sorry for anyone who never felt safe enough to explore who they are. Hopefully everyone will find kindness and loving support soon. I wasn't sure on Talarico, but you've sold me 100% on him. I hope kids can become whomever they want and are received with love and support no matter how big their dreams (or eyelashes are). So thankful for all the work queens do with our kids. We have plenty of mass shootings and pedophiles in power. Time for a change. When the power of love becomes greater than the love of power, the world will know peace (Hendrix). 🥰

We are more alike than not....  Love > Power = Peace Allow love to win. 

 Pocket Boundaries Card For moments when your voice needs a spine and a root system --- 1. When I’m interrupted “Pause. I’m not finished.”   (Mycelium grows in silence, but it still takes up space.) --- 2. When my feelings are debated “I’m not debating this. I’m sharing my experience.”   (Truth doesn’t need permission to exist.) --- 3. When my reactions are compared  “We’re different people. My experience stands on its own.”   (No two mushrooms grow the same way.) --- 4. Fixation on wording instead of meaning “You’re focusing on the words, not what I’m trying to say.”   (Communication is a forest, not a single leaf.) --- 5. When the conversation steers away from my truth “Bring it back. This is about what I’m saying.”   (Roots don’t wander — they hold their ground.) --- 🌿 Footer mantra (tiny, at the bottom): “My voice is allowed to take up space.”   “I am not soil for someone else’s comfort.”

Some fill the space with noise so they don't have to feel the discomfort underneath. 

The more good you see, the better off you'll be! 

There are no bad drugs,  only bad uses of drugs.  There are no bad gods, only bad uses of god.  Why must we be so caught up on judgments on arbitrary morals?   Right and wrong are not black and white.  Be good.   Choose Love.  Appreciate Others.

It's shit either way... you can either smear it on the wall or plant a seed in it

When "how can I help?" Turns into "there's nothing left of me for me" #nocookies

Kids who never learn to: pack their own things for a planned activity clean up after themselves say thank you take responsibility think ahead… grow into adults who: can’t manage their own lives expect others to fix things struggle in relationships struggle at work feel helpless when things go wrong Legal adult is not the same as functional adult

Interception 

A quiet welcoming space to explore simple arts and crafts together.  Come as you are,  create at your own pace,  and share in a gentle way of making.  -Be the River

Each day,  ask self:  Am I going to add to the aggression in the world?

You don’t have to watch yourself heal in real time. You just wake up one day and realize you’re not the creature you thought you were.  You don’t have to earn this. You don’t have to manage it. You don’t have to fix yourself. You just get to see the truth now. I'm not the thing I was afraid I was. 

It is so important to be understood.  To feel seen. First by self,  then by others.  Without attunement: Closeness doesn't feel like connecting. Conversation doesn't feel mutual. Presence doesn't feel supportive.  Time out for a child is the worst punishment.  They learn they will be abandoned if they don't mask to an acceptable emotional state.  Time outs are for parents only. 

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